When I was running I hated my body. Yoga has taught me how to love and appreciate my body.

I’ve spent most of my life punishing my body for not being perfect. Yoga allowed me to (finally) celebrate my body. Celebrate not only the way I look but more importantly, celebrate what my body can do and the way I feel about my body.

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Hating My Body

I started hating my body when I was eight. My dad and brother called me fat and constantly made fun of me. I look back at photos from that time, and while I had baby fat, an 8 year old should NEVER be called fat. Over the next couple of years, I grew taller and slimmed down. But I STILL felt fat. I started hunching over as I grew taller – so nobody would notice me. My dad admonished me, “Stop slouching. Stand up straight. What’s wrong with you?”

Ha. I felt like so much was wrong with me. Not just with my body, but me. It’s interesting how the two are related.

As a teenager, I found the more I obsessed about what not to eat, the more I ate EVERYTHING. That continued through college. Except instead of just eating, I was eating AND drinking. In my early 20s, my “exercise” was to take the stairs instead of the elevator and park my car far away. I experimented with running…once or twice…and then realized it was pure torture and gave that up. Looking back at the photos during those times, I was more curvy than fat. But I still felt fat, so that made it true.

Isn’t it interesting how our perceptions shape our reality?

If you were ever teased, made fun of, called names or had your body (inappropriately) commented on by someone you knew or even a complete stranger, you know exactly what I’m talking about. And you know how difficult it is to shake the voice in your head, even as an adult. At that point, your actual body size and capabilities don’t matter, because you’ve been conditioned to think of yourself in a certain way.

Hating our bodies is something that we learn, and it sure as hell is something that we can unlearn. ~Megan Jayne Crabbe

Learning to Love My Body

When I finally found love and appreciation for my body I was in my 40s. That’s a long time to be uncomfortable in your own skin. Now I appreciate my body for what it allows me to do. And I appreciate my body’s limitations –  I’ll never run a five minute mile (or even a nine minute mile), I’ll never put my foot behind my head in yoga (why would I – that just looks weird!) and in order to feel good and do what I do on a daily basis, I need to eat right, get enough sleep and move my body.

The following (plus my regular practice of yoga) allows me to celebrate and accept every aspect of my body. It’s been a journey (and a struggle), but I feel like I have finally overcome the shame that used to be a constant part of my life.

Let Go of the Idea of a “Perfect” Body

• Release unrealistic expectations of body size and capability.
• Allow yourself to grieve for the body you used to have or will never have.
• A so called perfect body has nothing to do with happiness.

Acknowledge How Your Body Brings Joy

• From walking to running to hiking to yoga.
• The physical pleasures you enjoy.
• Getting out of bed in the morning.
• Holding or hugging a loved one.

Practice Gratitude for Your Body

• Gratitude for the things your body does (sometimes without you even asking) – every breath, every step, every move.
• Gratitude for your health and wellness.
• Gratitude for your digestive system and your immune system.
• Gratitude for your strength, flexibility and endurance.
• Gratitude for your sense of touch, smell, taste, sight and hearing.
• Gratitude for the features that make you unique – your smile, your eyes, your strong legs.

Be Good to Your Body

Pay attention to what your body is telling you - when you’re hungry, thirsty, tired, feeling depleted or anxious - only when you notice these things can you respond and act accordingly.

• Get active. Move! Not just for your body, but for your brain. You NEED to do something that gets your heart rate up and makes you sweat. Start small. Don’t schedule your first marathon or cross country bike ride just yet. Take a yoga class, join the Y, walk – fast, pull your bike out of the garage.
• If you sit and do nothing you will only feel worse, physically, mentally and emotionally.
• Indulge and eat what you enjoy. In moderation. Yes to dessert, why not? Yes, thank you, to a delicious roll with real butter.  Yes to a glass of wine. Then add fresh fruits and vegetables, whole grains and healthy fats. Cooking at home is one of the best ways to eat healthy, day in and day out.
• Practice mindful eating. Notice are you eating because you’re hungry or are you eating because you’re stressed or bored?
• Get plenty of sleep.
• Take quiet and alone time when you need it.
• Make a self love practice a priority.
• Stop the negative self talk.
• Take a break from social media and the comparison of yourself to other bodies.

Loving your body means you accept your body as it is. Loving your body is valuing your body for all that has helped you do in your life. Loving your body helps you to have boundaries around your body. Who can touch you. What you're willing to accept from others saying about you.

Allow yourself to experience joy, pleasure, contentment, all of the beauty of life – today. Just as you are. Celebrate you and your body. Don’t let anybody shame you about your body, because you are perfect exactly as you are.

This blog is intended to provide helpful suggestions for self care and overall well-being. I am not a mental health professional. If you’re struggling I encourage you to seek the help of a professional. Find a Mental Health Professional | National Suicide & Crisis Lifeline: Dial 988